MOOOOOOD

today didn't start any earlier than yesterday.

i had one of those sleepless nights where you can't drift off until the sun's coming up, just to be sure you survived whatever the hell it was keeping you awake all night. i think the sound that put me to sleep was my mom leaving for work.

i'm stuck in a mood, a mood that doesn't let me sleep unless it's daylight. i'm trying to pinpoint where it's from, when it started, the cure. i've self-diagnosed a day out of the house, maybe some time at the bookstore, some time idealoguing at the coffeeshop, some time eating some sushi. actually, that sounds very good to me. i will take a full dose daily until symptoms discontinue.

jamie says it's the after effects of travel, something similar to post-partum depression. it could be something subconscious like that, it could be very simply jet lag. it could be the playlist i put on while i washed the dishes, it could have been spending friday night in the hospital. it could be the inability to settle my room, it could be a lonely heart. it could go on and on and on and on for the rest of my life, condemning me to join the disturbing league of insomniacs unwittingly nocturnal, unknowingly dead. no, that's terrible. i'm out of here, doctor's orders. will return healed.

don't worry people, i'm not sad. i'm just restless.